Let me ask you something. Have you ever felt torn between two hearts?
One that beats for the person you love, and another that races for someone who ignites a spark you can’t explain? You tell yourself, “This is wrong.” But your body whispers, “This is real.”
Here’s the truth: You’re not just fighting desire. You’re fighting memory.
Body Remembers
Your body isn’t just flesh and bone. It’s a living, breathing archive.
- It remembers your ancestors—their faces, their features, their stories.
- It remembers every touch, every embrace, every connection.
- It even remembers what you’ve forgotten.
This isn’t poetic. It’s biological. When you touch someone—really touch them—your body absorbs their memory. It’s called runanubandha(In Yogic Science): a physical bond that lingers long after the moment has passed.
Danger of Too Many Memories
Now, imagine this: Every time you’re intimate with someone, you’re not just sharing a moment. You’re sharing a piece of yourself.
- Your body collects their energy, their essence, their memory.
- Over time, these memories pile up, creating a tangled web of connections.
- What starts as pleasure can end as chaos.
You might laugh, giggle, and feel alive in the moment. But deep down, you’ll feel restless, uneasy, and disconnected.
Too many memories = too little peace.
Compulsion vs. The Conscious Choice
Here’s where it gets tricky.
- Compulsion is when you act on every attraction, every impulse, every fleeting desire. It feels freeing, but it leaves you fragmented.
- Conscious choice is when you decide what matters most. It feels restrictive, but it leaves you whole.
This isn’t about morality. It’s about integrity—not the kind society preaches, but the kind that keeps your life strong, stable, and aligned with your deepest priorities.
The Longing to Belong
Why do we crave connection so deeply?
- As children, we’re tethered to our mothers—energetically, physically, emotionally.
- As adults, we search for that same bond in partners, friends, and even strangers.
But here’s the catch: You can’t fill an inner void with outer connections.
The more desperately you cling to others, the more you lose yourself.
How to Navigate the Storm
1. Know Your Priorities.
- What do you want from life? Love? Growth? Freedom? Clarity?
- Let your choices reflect your deepest values, not your fleeting desires.
2. Protect Your Energy.
- Be mindful of who you touch, who you let in, and who you share yourself with.
- Every connection leaves a mark. Choose wisely.
3. Strengthen Your Integrity.
- Practice sadhana—yoga, meditation, or any discipline that grounds you.
- Build a life so strong, so full, that you don’t need to borrow from others.
4. Embrace Conscious Love.
- If you choose a partner, let it be a conscious decision, not a compulsive one.
- Love isn’t about filling gaps. It’s about sharing wholeness.
Ultimate Truth
Attraction isn’t the enemy. Compulsion is.
- You can love someone and still feel drawn to others. That’s human.
- But how you act on those feelings—that’s where your power lies.
The next time you feel torn, ask yourself: Am I building memories or breaking myself?
Then, choose integrity. Choose wholeness. Choose love—not as an escape, but as an expression of who you are.